“Netflix and chill” a term kids use nowadays to refer to something rather crude. But let’s use it as a different way.
Whether it’s tv or reading or watching movies, these outlets are something that help us forget for just a while that our lives that our minds aren’t as crappy as they feel.
There’s always something in our lives that can distract us from the things we struggle with within our selves. For me it’s my anxiety.. the depression… the self doubt and self consciousness inside me that keep me from moving forward. But as hard as they fight to keep me frozen in my own fear, in my own self doubt, I will forever fight harder then they do.
Today I chose to spend sometime watching Netflix, I chose something I wouldn’t ever watch but it turns out it was one of the most interesting things I’ve ever watched. Heart wrenching and just amazing.Usually I just grab a book and lay out in the grass… on a blanket of course because I’m allergic to basically everything out side 😂😂. But today, this time it was different. I felt more calm, more at peace than ever. I know I said that yesterday but it seems things are looking up. It’s been 2 days since I’ve had a panic attack. Which is a rather big for me. I’m used to big panic attacks that could last from 15 min to hours. They aren’t always what you see in the movies… shaking, rocking, crying, screaming. Don’t get me wrong that happens and they hurt and the crash after is even worse. But they are also over thinking, nervousness that has you frozen in fear. Trouble breathing and even irritability. I’ve gone from being happy as anything to spacing out and snapping on my love. And that’s not right and it’s not fair to him. But sometimes it’s out of your control.
So tell me, what do you struggle with? And how do you handle it. Thanks for dealing with my rambling posts.
Xoxo neuro 💕🐨
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