Lust

When do you feel lust? Is it when you find someone attractive? When you have a sexual attraction to someone? Or is it more emotional?

How do you tell the differences between lust and love? What separates the two from one another.. How can you determine how you truly feel about someone.

The issue with this is I have never felt the same way about more than one person. Every love I’ve ever had, every crush, every feelings that I’ve towards someone is different. No two loves are the same.

There are levels of love… stages… but they’re all unique. I think that’s amazing…. And amazingly scary. What you get with one person you wont ever get from another. There are no two loves that you can view as the same. … So is that the same with lust?

Can you have different emotional levels of lust for someone like you do love?? How do you decipher you’re emotions… process everything going on in your head when you are feeling so many things for so many people.

It’s a truly terrifying feeling to have so many feelings for more than one person. You start to doubt if one of them is even real…… is any of it real?

But one is stronger than another…. The attraction is intense.. there’s electricity in your veins when they touch you… forget about when your lips touch… or when their fingers brush your skin….. its a magnetic charge that shocks you and pulls you closer together. Yet at the same time, you feel as complete and calm, and whole, like you never have before.

If there’s one thing i know… It’s that my love for you is the most real thing i could ever feel. That the feelings you make me have.. the emotions that you pull from deep down in the blackest pits of my soul….. there is no faking that… there’s no question in my mind… not a single fraction of a doubt that you belong with me….

The only question that wracks my brain… is do you belong with anyone else? Or is that all just lust… or different loves?

I know the answer to that….. the lust… the love… there’s different ones… and I get that.. but part of me believes that you are my soul mate.. my other half… my missing piece… and no one can replace that.

Xoxo, Neuro