Hope

Nothing gives you hope like things finally falling into place. You find love, you build something with someone special.. and you plan for the future

You let yourself hope again for the first time in a long time.. and suddenly everything falls into place.

You then realize that all of your hope is worth it because you have the power to change your future and build a life just the way you hope for it.

And maybe.. just maybe.. this time.. you’ll be glad you help on hope to the things that bring your soul to life.

Mom

I’m sitting here, with m…she’s cooking breakfast, and I’m drinking coffee and reading. We’re just vibing, smoking, and existing in each other’s company. Every time she approaches me and gives me a kiss… or places her hand on me…. Or just comes to tell me something… it is the best fucking feeling.

She just came up to me and told me that we’re going to have an amazing life together. I couldn’t agree more.

But as I sit here… the only thing that ones to my mind is that I wish you were here to see it. I wish you were here to see the way my life has turned in the past 2 and a half years… I’m finally being true to my self just like you always wanted me to… I’m being me true self… loving my self…. And I have 2 gorgeous, amazing girlfriends that you would absolutely love.

But believe me when I say this… That you would absolutely adore m. I wish I could sit and talk with you,, tell you all about her… she’s the most amazing woman I could have ever asked to love me. She is kind, and sweet, she’s caring, and so fucking beautiful. You would adore everything about her… but you would absolutely love the way she treats me and how genuinely happy I am.

I wish you were here to experience the love, joy, and amazing things that have been happening in my life. I wish you were here to see when we have kids, the life we make for ourselves, and the day that I make her my wife.

New Year, New Me

New year, new me. That’s what we all say after the new year right? New Years resolutions, changing your self for the better… blah, blah, blah. Usually I have the same New Years resolutions, lose weight, make more money, move out of my current hell hole I live in. But there’s a difference between the pst years and this year.

The difference between past years and this year is amazing, and truly shows that I grew last year. I no longer have “lose weight” as a resolution. I have “love my self”. i know this will take time, but I have all of the time in the world to work on it. Yes, I need to lose weight, but I am no longer the highest weight I’ve been, and have lost 25 pounds in the last 6 months, and I did it with out changing a thing. I still eat what I want, I move as much as I can with my work load, but I stopped caring, no, stressing over the fact that I am in fact FAT. i have rolls, and fat, and i jiggle when I walk but who cares?? I’m working on it. And it’s my body… the only one I have.

The next difference is I start a new job with better health insurance, more money, more opportunities to move up in my field, and I won’t’ have to deal with my current boss. This new job will allow me to finish school, earn more money, and I’ll be able to find a new place to live. That sounds like improvement and growth already don’t ya think??

The last part, my favorite part, I’m going to put my writing to good use. No, I don’t mean these blog post where I just word vomit my feeling, thoughts, or whatever flows from my brain to my fingers, I mean my WRITING. I’m going to finish my novel, and write children’s books. Amazon makes it easy to write e-books for kindle, and I’ll be damned if I don’t get published. I’ll self-publish my books until I can be noticed and get published by someone else.

This will be MY YEAR. My time to shine. My time to grow. My time to be happy. Make it your year too. How will you make it your year? What are your New Years resolutions? Lemme know!

Xoxo, Neuro

Life.

Today is January 1st, 2021 and I CHOOSE to live MY life as I see fit. Not how my spouse sees fit, not my parents, or my siblings. ME. I am in control and I demand that I will take my life by the reigns and make it the best one I can. I will not be subject to someone else controlling my moves, my day to day actions, my thoughts, my feelings, my emotions. I promise to my self that I am here for me, for my life, and for the future that is ahead of me. I will NOT put my self down. I will NOT take my self for granted. I will NOT let my self fall through the cracks of this universe with out putting my mark on this world.

But first, What is life?

Life. The thing we are given, not the thing we choose. Well, technically speaking. Life is the thing that we are given from the moment our parents do the deed, to the moment our life washes away. We did not chose to be here, to be a form of life on this planet we call home. Some one else chose this life for us, but once we are given this life it is not something to be taken lightly. We only have one… at a time. Some people believe in reincarnation, while others do not and that is completely up to you what you believe. None the less what ever you believe it is important to take this life we have been given and do the best we can.

We must do the best we can, not for our spouse, or for our parents, but for ourselves. This is the life we have been given, and it has been given to us for one reason or another but it is OURS. Do not take this life for granted, you chose what you make of it. CHOOSE to be happy, CHOOSE to have love. love for this life,. Love for yourself. Love your mind, your body, your soul. You only have one, and what happens if you waste the only life you have? You end up not wanting, not choosing to push foreword, not choosing to continue living this wonderful life you were given.

Starting today I promise my self that I will not judge my body, my mind, or my self worth. I am a QUEEN. I am BEAUTIFUL. I am WORTHY of LOVE and COMPASSION. And so are you. Hold your head up high, show your self the love and compassion that you deserve.

Xoxo Neuro