Mom

I’m sitting here, with m…she’s cooking breakfast, and I’m drinking coffee and reading. We’re just vibing, smoking, and existing in each other’s company. Every time she approaches me and gives me a kiss… or places her hand on me…. Or just comes to tell me something… it is the best fucking feeling.

She just came up to me and told me that we’re going to have an amazing life together. I couldn’t agree more.

But as I sit here… the only thing that ones to my mind is that I wish you were here to see it. I wish you were here to see the way my life has turned in the past 2 and a half years… I’m finally being true to my self just like you always wanted me to… I’m being me true self… loving my self…. And I have 2 gorgeous, amazing girlfriends that you would absolutely love.

But believe me when I say this… That you would absolutely adore m. I wish I could sit and talk with you,, tell you all about her… she’s the most amazing woman I could have ever asked to love me. She is kind, and sweet, she’s caring, and so fucking beautiful. You would adore everything about her… but you would absolutely love the way she treats me and how genuinely happy I am.

I wish you were here to experience the love, joy, and amazing things that have been happening in my life. I wish you were here to see when we have kids, the life we make for ourselves, and the day that I make her my wife.

Mom

I miss you more than words can imagine… I wish you could see the person I am today.. two and a half years after you died.

I wish you could meet someone who’s very important to me. I met the most amazing woman back in January… and she has become the best thing in my world.

I just know you’d love her. For everything she is, for all of her. She is perfection. And she is my other half.

I wish you could be here to see how happy I am and how happy she makes me.

I wish you could see everything I have accomplished and everything I am.

I miss your laugh and the way your tell me “that’s not right” when I’d say something sassy.

I miss the way you’d hold me right whenever something was wrong and you’d make sure I was okay. You’re my best friend. My favorite person. And love you endlessly.

I wish you were here.

I know it’s selfish but I wish I had you back.

I hate that you left me.

No matter how old you get you always need your mom.

I love you.

Xoxo neuro