Tag: axiety

I want to be loved.

I want to be loved like there’s no one else in the world that compares to me.

I want to be loved like there’s no other way to live.

I want to be loved…

I want to be loved by someone so genuine that you can’t even imagine what you were thinking when you were with someone else.

There is no one else.

That’s the love I crave and desire.

A burning sensation so intense that I might die if I don’t receive it.

I want to be loved.

Xoxo, Neuro

Trust

How do you trust anyone? Strangers? Friends? Family? Significant others? How does one just let go and put their trust and faith into someone so effortlessly.

We go through life putting our trust into so many people, on multiple levels throughout our days without even realizing it. We trust out family to have our backs, we trust our friends to be there for us, strangers not to ram into our cars while we’re driving. Yet, there are so many of us who can’t trust ourselves.

What do we do when we realize that we can’t even trust ourselves to keep us safe?

Maybe it’s the anxiety, maybe it’s the trauma.. but one of the saddest moments is when you realize that no matter what.. you thought you were safe.. but you can’t even seem to do that for yourself.

and honestly that is what terrifies me.

Here I sit and wonder… will I ever trust myself again? Will I ever let myself trust someone else again?

Right now, I honestly don’t know. maybe one day I’ll trust again.. but that day won’t be today.

xoxo, Neuro

The Little Things

It’s always the little things that we experience that bring me the most joy and peace in my life. Cooking in the kitchen with the love of my life, the thought of getting to come home to her every day for the rest of my life… the looks given across the table..Joking each other because thats how we show each other we love you.

It’s crazy honestly, the connection you can have with someone where just the littlest touch, the slightest look, can give you full body shivers… and make you feel as if you’re floating on cloud 9…

The way I feel with her… is the way I’ve always wanted to be loved. The day I make her my wife will be the best day of my life. The sweetest moment. just like every other moment we’ve ever had together, everything in it’s self is simple. From the way that we joke, to how we cook, to the way we love and crave to be loved.

Every little thing is as easy as breathing.

And god I can’t believe I get to spend these little moments and experience the little things with her.

It’s fucking crazy.

Xoxo, Neuro

Jealousy

Jealousy is such an ugly feeling. It will make the sweetest of women turn vicious in a second… but it’s a valid feeling. Seeing the one you love, be in love with someone else can be tough to deal with.. but we do what we have to and we move on.

What gets my blood boiling is when someone acts out in jealousy… and pulls that “poor me” act.. it pisses me off to. No fucking end. I can’t stand when people decide to try and intimidate, guilt, or whatever else out of jealousy.

It’s just one of those things that gets my anger goin. Ya know?

But you smile, play nice and smoke about it.

You vibe to the music, remember the ones you love, you breathe in the good vibes… and exhale the bullshit.

And you put on your big girl panties and move the fuck on.

End of rant.

Xoxo neuro

Nights Like These

Nights like these are hard to come by. The nights you just exist with the love of your life smoking, Vibing to music, and just living life.

Not just existing

But actually LIVING

it’s fucking crazy.

But god I love nights like these with you.

Xoxo, neuro.

The Perfect Day

This morning we got up.. you made breakfast… the best bacon… and Cinnamon Toast Crunch cinnamon rolls…

I kissed you in the kitchen.. and I fell even more in love with you.

I can’t wait for weekends like this with you. Waking up next to you.. cuddling in bed… coffee in the mornin. Music playing. Us dancing in the kitchen the dogs and kids and c. playing in the living room

I want this to be our forever… cuddles and morning coffee, dancing in the kitchen.. packing up the car and taking family trips to the beach. On a sunny Saturday morning.

Then biscuits and gravy for breakfast come Sunday.. I want every moment with you.

Thank you for all the love you’ve given me. Everything you do for me. I love you so incredibly much.

Xoxo, neuro

Mom

I miss you more than words can imagine… I wish you could see the person I am today.. two and a half years after you died.

I wish you could meet someone who’s very important to me. I met the most amazing woman back in January… and she has become the best thing in my world.

I just know you’d love her. For everything she is, for all of her. She is perfection. And she is my other half.

I wish you could be here to see how happy I am and how happy she makes me.

I wish you could see everything I have accomplished and everything I am.

I miss your laugh and the way your tell me “that’s not right” when I’d say something sassy.

I miss the way you’d hold me right whenever something was wrong and you’d make sure I was okay. You’re my best friend. My favorite person. And love you endlessly.

I wish you were here.

I know it’s selfish but I wish I had you back.

I hate that you left me.

No matter how old you get you always need your mom.

I love you.

Xoxo neuro