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The Little Things

It’s always the little things that we experience that bring me the most joy and peace in my life. Cooking in the kitchen with the love of my life, the thought of getting to come home to her every day for the rest of my life… the looks given across the table..Joking each other because thats how we show each other we love you.

It’s crazy honestly, the connection you can have with someone where just the littlest touch, the slightest look, can give you full body shivers… and make you feel as if you’re floating on cloud 9…

The way I feel with her… is the way I’ve always wanted to be loved. The day I make her my wife will be the best day of my life. The sweetest moment. just like every other moment we’ve ever had together, everything in it’s self is simple. From the way that we joke, to how we cook, to the way we love and crave to be loved.

Every little thing is as easy as breathing.

And god I can’t believe I get to spend these little moments and experience the little things with her.

It’s fucking crazy.

Xoxo, Neuro

Jealousy

Jealousy is such an ugly feeling. It will make the sweetest of women turn vicious in a second… but it’s a valid feeling. Seeing the one you love, be in love with someone else can be tough to deal with.. but we do what we have to and we move on.

What gets my blood boiling is when someone acts out in jealousy… and pulls that “poor me” act.. it pisses me off to. No fucking end. I can’t stand when people decide to try and intimidate, guilt, or whatever else out of jealousy.

It’s just one of those things that gets my anger goin. Ya know?

But you smile, play nice and smoke about it.

You vibe to the music, remember the ones you love, you breathe in the good vibes… and exhale the bullshit.

And you put on your big girl panties and move the fuck on.

End of rant.

Xoxo neuro

Nights Like These

Nights like these are hard to come by. The nights you just exist with the love of your life smoking, Vibing to music, and just living life.

Not just existing

But actually LIVING

it’s fucking crazy.

But god I love nights like these with you.

Xoxo, neuro.

The Perfect Day

This morning we got up.. you made breakfast… the best bacon… and Cinnamon Toast Crunch cinnamon rolls…

I kissed you in the kitchen.. and I fell even more in love with you.

I can’t wait for weekends like this with you. Waking up next to you.. cuddling in bed… coffee in the mornin. Music playing. Us dancing in the kitchen the dogs and kids and c. playing in the living room

I want this to be our forever… cuddles and morning coffee, dancing in the kitchen.. packing up the car and taking family trips to the beach. On a sunny Saturday morning.

Then biscuits and gravy for breakfast come Sunday.. I want every moment with you.

Thank you for all the love you’ve given me. Everything you do for me. I love you so incredibly much.

Xoxo, neuro

SHE IS LOVE.

The look in her eyes when she answers the phone and sees that it’s me.

The way her smile brightens when i make a goofy face.

She is love.

The way she laughs at the dump things I say.

The way she blushes when I call her out on her shit.

…when i tell her “i love you” and he smile grabs ahold of her eyes, making her eyes shine a deep green, with under-hues of blue.

She is love.

The way her light exudes from her soul… She is a master at captivating me.

Her inner beauty shines brighter than any other soul could.

She is beautiful on the outside, even though she doesn’t know it.

She is patient.

She is kind.

She is passionate.

She is strong.

SHE is LOVE.

Xoxo, Neuro

The Uncertainty of Love

After 6 months of being single.. I can finally stomach the idea of maybe falling in love again.. key word… MAYBE.

Love is a weird feeling.. the excited head rush.. the butterflies.. the feeling of being home.. safe.. and cared for.. all from being around one person. It’s a strange feeling when you’re truly not used to feeling it..

Some people say that I’m the feeling of love comes and goes. That you can fall out of love as quickly as you can fall into it. But to me.. if you fall out of it that quickly.. was it even love?

That’s what truly haunts me the most.. the uncertainty of feelings.. you they truly feel the same way? Could I marry this person? How would I feel of they just disappeared from my life? The questions that follow the thought of love.. they bring a rise of uncertainty to the idea of love. Is it worth it?

Is the possibility of love worth the uncertainty of losing yourself, losing everything you feel for a person? How do you know when to take that plung?

These are the questions that radiate through my mind as I think about love.

Xoxo Neuro

Hope.

I’ve been going through a lot lately… end of a relationship, rekindling of a friendship, new diagnosis, and new life experiences.. all during a pandemic.

Things are crazy, and I’m not sure how to feel about it. The one thing I do know.. is that I maybe, just maybe might actually be happy. Which is something I haven’t felt in a long time. I never thought I could feel this away again.. not in a million years. But I’m glad I do.

I’m glad I get to experience life.. not feel guilty… and just have a chance to be my self and figure out everything that is.. well, that is me.

All of this gives me hope. And I will do everything in my power to make sure it stays this way.

Xoxo, Neuro

Stress.

I haven’t posted in a bit because I’ve been going through a lot. I’m switching meds and this change has had some bad side effects. Today I had an extremely bad panic attack that almost ended my marriage… and that was scary. The littlest things are making me irritable and it scares me…

Can anyone else relate?

Xoxo💕🐨💕