Change

Change is possibly my least favorite thing to experience in life.

I don’t think anyone likes change… if I’m being honest. However, the thing with life is nothing is permanent.. things are constantly changing. Life is changing. I got fired from my job.. for something out of my control. Spent a month and a half with out a job.. and finally accepted a job at my old company..

I’m excited for what the future holds. I’m in a new relationship, I’m about to start a new job, and I’m looking to move out of my current living situation. ‘

Change is scary to me… all of the what ifs.. all of the times that you just don’t know what the future holds. I would rather sit back and know everything thats going to happen that be in the dark of the future.

Hope.

I’ve been going through a lot lately… end of a relationship, rekindling of a friendship, new diagnosis, and new life experiences.. all during a pandemic.

Things are crazy, and I’m not sure how to feel about it. The one thing I do know.. is that I maybe, just maybe might actually be happy. Which is something I haven’t felt in a long time. I never thought I could feel this away again.. not in a million years. But I’m glad I do.

I’m glad I get to experience life.. not feel guilty… and just have a chance to be my self and figure out everything that is.. well, that is me.

All of this gives me hope. And I will do everything in my power to make sure it stays this way.

Xoxo, Neuro

Stress.

I haven’t posted in a bit because I’ve been going through a lot. I’m switching meds and this change has had some bad side effects. Today I had an extremely bad panic attack that almost ended my marriage… and that was scary. The littlest things are making me irritable and it scares me…

Can anyone else relate?

Xoxo💕🐨💕